Am I There Yet??

Meal plans, cleaning schedules and budgets are great tools ... when I remember that they're tools. Sometimes I forget that and they become my master who, if I forget a task, will plague my thoughts with  lists and sear my emotions with guilt.

I'm learning ... however slowly ... that to 'arrive' really doesn't happen in this life. We strive for it, and our culture even tells us that we CAN 'arrive' - a certain career, a certain income level, a certain amount of  money in savings, and you're 'there'. You've done it - now kick back and relax.

Reminds me of Luke 12: 19,20:  

"And I’ll sit back and say to myself, 

“My friend, you have enough stored away for years to come. Now take it easy! Eat, drink, and be merry!”’  “But God said to him, ‘You fool! You will die this very night. Then who will get everything you worked for?’" 

I make plans, but am starting to view them more as guidelines - rough outlines. I go after them seriously, but with an ear toward heaven - just in case God's plans are different. (which they often are...)

I  may not get to all these cleaning zones, and I'll fall of the cash envelope wagon ... I'll even miss posting on this blog from time to time ... but these times don't define me. I'm learning to be a steward - learning self discipline - learning.

I remember Dr. Phil saying years ago that, when a baby is learning to walk and falls, the parents don't say 'get up, you stupid baby!" and kick it ... they accept that he is learning. This will mean making mistakes and not getting it. I'm learning not to kick myself but instead to just accept it and try again. 

... Okay, Kim. It's okay. Try again.

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